For this song, recording, writing and mixing were totally intertwined, making Agata and me fall deeper and deeper into its black hole. It started as an improvisation in a one-day recording session in Berlin at the beginning of the summer of 2018. After the summer, I worked on editing it and found this melodramatic piano melody by Agata that I completely fell in love with. The take continued by developing into more and more abstract sounds and I found that I could bring back that first melody as a coda with a new harmony around it and even more melodramatic arrangements around it.
Shortly after, Agata and I met again in Copenhagen on another one session only aimed to process and effect the piano sounds of the Berlin session beyond recognition.
The first version of the edited takes, now in the form of songs, waited in the furthest corner of a hard-drive until Pink Cotton Candy heard them and asked us to release them as an album.
Then it was my time to finally record the arrangements for Pseudobulbar Affect that I had always heard in my heard. A brushed drum track throughout the song and a string quartet for the ending melody. I went down to the basement of my Secret Tower Studio in Copenhagen and recorded the drums myself late at night. I tried to make it fit but nothing made it work til I started processing the overdub until it became the distant, cavernous, echoey, subby kick drum that make the song walk forward.
When the time to record the string quartet came, I understood that it needed a similar approach to the drums and i went super minimal about it, freezing in reverb the last note of each line of the piano melody. That plus the heart beat of an 808 kick, made me get emotional and close to tears every time i would listen back to the end while mixing. Hence the title, Pseudobulbar Affect, which is a clinical term for a condition that makes people cry beyond any kind of proportion.