— How did the song come about? What came first – the production, the melody or the lyrics?
– I wrote this when I was living with my parents a year into the pandemic. I was making music out of their garage (so literally my own garage band). I made this one night when I exhausted listening to all my go-to comfort songs. It started as me in the cold, spidery garage on my uku.
The chorus was the first thing I wrote:
hold me if i lose my mind
catatonic all the time erased
promise i won't be like this forever
i can see a day
And this song felt like a breakthrough therapy session. I wrote it, wanting comfort from someone else. But now when i listen back to it, the song feels like it was written as comfort for this future me.
By the time I release something I'm normally so sick of listening to it. But that still hasn't happened with this song. It's grown in meaning and hits something unique for me.
Also I wrote this song almost a year ago. All the pieces were there but it didn't feel complete. A few months ago i revisited it and changed the rhythm of the chorus vocals, and it was suddenly there.